Yes i am back!
After quite a wild ride with modern medicine...
Ended up back in hospital with medication reactions/allergies
Seems morphine and i are NOT the best of friends (Causes vomiting)
...so have found another in pain patches (Fentanyl)
Soooo much easier to tolerate as it is more gentle on my system and slow release
(i need pain relief due to an extended liver again)
And seems the oral chemo may need to be in lower doses as i ended up with...
Ulceration/rashes all over my poor old body and mouth, throat, lips and intestines!
(Will see my Oncologist in a week or so about that)
Whew! and i can tell you now THAT that was the sickest i have EVER felt!
Am unfortunately am back on steroids (YEECH!) but only for a short time
Until things settle...
Have had my fortitude and strength sorely tested lately i must say...
As my family most certainly can attest to...
But Thank God for them as they have all been so wonderful!
As have you guys with your kind wishes and prayers so ~Thankyou~ so much
Hub has taken a months leave to discover his inner "Mr Mom!"
and done a great job holding the fort together while i have literally been immobile
My mum has been wonderful, in and out of hospital with clean washing/clothes
and a shoulder to cry upon... Luv ya mum *Kisses*
And during all the duress my son has turned 16yrs (!!!)
i simply can't believe how fast the time flies! Love you hunny (((Hugs)))
And my eldest (now 18yrs) while studying like a maniac (Doing her VCE)
Has also gained her car license... We are so proud X:-)
And my baby is doing so well in netball that her team is in the Grand Finals again!
i am just so proud of them for coping with all the stress...
...and still keep managing to keep their lives together and the ~Smiles~ on for me
i have also had some amazing ~Energy Work~ help from a great mate of mine Michael...
Who while i was in hospital managed some awesome keeping it all together for me
Love You Mic (((Hugs))) You are truly *magic*
And many more Thankyou's to ~SweetestMango~ who always has my back *Kisses*
and to my wonderful Naturopath/Kinesiologist cousin and her fab 'meds'...
And not forgetting an amazing woman Kharananda
...who is teaching me so much about how to look within...
And sis i haven't forgotten you, always a loving support ~Thankyou~
AND Nana, Aunty Collette, cousin Nicky, Aunty Robyn, Rhonda, my beautiful Shantaya... honestly the list is so long...
i am truly and utterly ~Blessed~
And do you want to know a little something magical?
When i was at my darkest and lowest... i asked for a little sign from the Heavens...
and what did they do???
YEP they sent me another "David"
He was the Doc who turned things around for me in hospital X:-)
Along with the most caring help of all the wonderful nursing staff, Luv ya Roxie!
And with the most wonderful support of Dr Adrian...
who helped me to look into the shadows of my mind literally
by helping me to face one of my darkest fears and having a brain scan
(All clear by the way... There was a brain there afteral!)
i also made a lovely friend in hospital Fiona
who like a soul sista kept me laughing (when i wasn't chucking! Lol!)
and you will stay in my ~Prayers~ Dear girl
Well that's all for now...
Just wanted to let you know that all is well... and the sun is out again
Luv ya's
*Smooches*
15 comments:
You're back and I am sooo happy you are feeling a bit better. Thinking of you and sending you lots of love!
xoxo
Hee! Hee! YOU are soooo in~tune with me! i knew you would be the first to comment! (((Hugs))) and ~Love~ back to You Sandi xox
I must say, you certainly are a survivor; a survivor who gets by with a little help from her friends. I glad to know you have such a wonderful care team!
The picture at the top; is that the colt of Old Regret that got away? Just wondering, because that's the first thing that came into my mind.
Yes, I know; strange Canadian Bear.
Blessings and Bear hugs, Vicki.
Tee! Hee! Rob-bear VERY insightful of you! (((Hugs)))
Vicki, I am so happy to see an update from you - you have been on my mind and I am, like Rob-bear, very grateful to read that you are in good hands. I laughed when I read your comments about the brain scan - when I had mine it was seriously the scariest thing that I have ever done! When they started strapping my head down, I had to fight panic with all of my inner strength! HATED IT!!!!
Vicki - you are such an inspiration, sweet lady! So glad that you are surrounded by people who love you, and are more than willing to jump in and help out.
Gentle hugs and many prayers are being sent to you with this message!
xoxoxoxo
Oh my Vicki, you have been to hell and back, but I am glad you are back and you had some angels helping you along the way, so glad.
Sending very giant hugs and lots of love. xoxo
Checked on FB first....and left a comment there... but a girl can never have too much love and hugs sent her way! Especially someone as beautiful and brave as you! You ARE truly blessed to have such an extraordinary family! Angels ARE there...believe it.
Sending you many hugs on a very foggy day in San Francisco,
Love,
♥ Robin ♥
So glad you're back and that your sun is shining once again!
Lots of hugs coming your way from me...xx
That was a wild ride! Glad your back on an even keel. feel much better real soon.
Dear Vicki
Such a relief to find your post today. Been wondering how you are of course and hoping that things were looking up for you - and now I am both glad and sorry at once. Glad, so very glad, that you are back with us. Sorry that you have had to endure such a debilitating journey recently.
Love and very best wishes, Phil
So glad to hear from you again. I think of you so often and I keep on praying. Blessings dear girl.
QMM
Hey, Nollyposh, I'm thrilled to find you sounding so positive. I'm glad you like the Fentanyl (which is stronger than morphine, actually), but didn't they try Phenergan for the morphine-induced nausea?
Vicki although you have been in the wars, being the special person that you are, you have managed to show gratitude to those that love and care for you. No wonder you hold such a special place in people's hearts.
And, just when I was trying to decide about oral chemo....
Thankyou & (((Hugs))) Audrey
And *You* are one of my ~Angels~ Annie *Kisses*
Robin, You have such a big ~Heart~ & i am sooo glad that you have found some room in there for me too, Love You x
Marion (((Hugs))) to You too my lovely Friend <3
Thankyou Angela <3 <3 <3
Thankyou dear Philip and sending Love & ~Healing wishes~ to your lovely daughter& may her journey be kind to her too (((Hugs))) x
Peggy, Thankyou so much for all those ~wonderful Prayers~ they are so appreciated *Kisses*
Hi Snow, Yes my new friend is Fentanyl... (Am on 25mcg patches every 3 days for now anyway) ...But the probs i had with Morphine were not just limited to the vomiting but also hallucinations (Yeech!) and everything they tried to give me for nausea didn't seem to work... Until we figured out that a lot of the stomach probs were probably more associated with the bloating of my liver (Putting pressure on all my other organs)... Sometimes you need to be a detective to work these thins out for yourself! (As you well know i guess!) Thanks for popping in x
(((Hugs))) Cheryl, Don't be put off the oral chemo as everyone is different & as my track record goes (being particularly sensitive) the Oncologist will probably just lower my dose... i think it is worth a go if it helps because in a lot of ways it is so less invasive xox
Peggy just came back and read this with me along with your latest poem-post.
My guess is that what makes one brave--speaking for myself anyway--is simply the practical consideration that there's no rational choice. I could scream and shake my fist at the heavens, but my pain would be there. I could kill myself, but I'm not ready for that.
But, Nollyposh, as bad as things have been for me, I've yet to face something that could kill me, and so I have no idea how I would handle it. I'm just curious though whether, for you as for me, bravery is mostly a practical matter that results from a lack of other options? If that's true (for the most part anyway), then there's hope, but if bravery requires a certain strength of character, that makes the possibility of going through what you're experiencing even more intimidating.
By the way, I just had my own Fentanyl adventure, but I fear that, in my case, it came close to dumping me off this earth. I'm quite appalled by how stupid I was.
I'm very, very tired, dear, so I hope I've made sense.
Love,
Snow
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