i REALLY think i am ~Glowing~ in the dark now!...
Had just completed the PET scan (as you know) and then promptly got really ill (vomiting, diarrhea and PAIN!) and ended up in our local emergency (Hospital)... Had another CT there, came home, got worse went back and then they sent me by ambulance to Monash Moorabin (Cancer centre) the nxt day... Ended up there for a week chucking and trying different meds to control pain, vomiting, diarrhea and THEN constipation (!!!) Finally got home yesterday arvo (and promptly threw up again!)... While in hosp they did another x-ray and a head scan... All clear... Whoo! Hoo!
i am continuing on the oral chemo tablets (Which have given me chemo rash all over my tummy and lower back) morphine pills and panadol (for the pain) and an anti-nausea pill... i think the worst thing about hospital this time around was that i was in a ward with the REALLY sick people and that got a bit depressing and hard to keep my spirits up (Let alone anyone else's!)... And while i was there someone in another room died and well it was all just very sad to say the least and i am very glad to be home... Patrick is organizing another week off until i am off my knees again (Lol!)
BUT in-between all the mayhem of sick people, there were small intimate moments as there always is... Like when the Minister quietly administered to the lady in the bed opposite me and a beautiful serene look overcame her face... Like the Whispered "i love You's" from relatives behind curtained walls... Like the determination of a gentleman in my room who managed (although it must have been so hard) to shower each day without a nurse... Like the gentleness of nurses even though people were very messily ill and distressed ...And not forgetting my stolen moments on the hospital balcony with the sun on my face, filling my Soul...
Thankyou so much for remembering me Hunnies and journeying along with me
...and a special ~Thankyou~ to the wonderful ~Sweetmangomagicalgirl~
LOVES, Loves and loves to You
Vicki xox
15 comments:
So wonderful to hear that you are home Vicki.
But what a trashy time you've had! I say this a bit tongue in cheek, but they could have killed you in there. Gasp.
And yet, and yet, the bits of beauty in the chaos and disorder. I trust your time at home will allow you to rest (something that doesn't happen that much in hospital).
Blessings and (extremely gentle) Bear hugs.
I am sorry you have to go through this. Love, love, love.
Being able to be outside and feel the sun on his face gave my husband so much joy during his struggle with cancer. What he once took for granted became so infinitely precious to him.
I am glad for your stolen moments.
What an ordeal. So sorry to hear you are having to endure this. Your attitude and spirit are simply inspiring. Sending you love and strength across the oceans.
Vicki - I am so sorry to hear that you have had a rough time of it. On the bright side, my current chemo, which is a clinical trial drug, initially caused me to break out in a rash. The nurses all got excited by that and told me that a rash usually means that the chemo is working! So far, that has been true for me, and I pray the same will be true for you.
So glad to hear that Patrick is making arrangements to be with you. No one wants to be alone when they are ill :(
Sending love, hugs and many prayers your way!
xoxoxo
I am so happy you are home... everything is better when you are in your own bed and can look out at your own garden. You are, without a doubt, one of the bravest people I know......your courage....and your humour are sterling examples to all of us!
I could almost visualise your sitting out on the balcony at the hospital, welcoming the warmth of the sun on your face.... almost like a hug from an old friend, right?
BELIEVE..... easier for me to say, then for you to do....but, I have to agree with Audrey....your body reacting with a rash does mean the meds are working! I am saying prayers daily - and I know all of your family - real and blogging is doing the same. We love you...and we need you hear to infuse the world with your special *magic*.
Hugs, hugs and many more hugs,
Love,
♥ Robin ♥
so glad you are home, if I had know you were in monash I would of come to visit and meet you. You have helped me so much through your blog it would be an honour to meet. Feel better soon.
I wish I could hold you close dear woman and feel your strength osmosing into my soul. I will just have to receive it from here and lift you up in prayer.
QMM
Vicki, may your hospital stay remain a thing of the past and may you look forward to more sunshine filling you with its rays to lift your spirits and fill your soul with the love and light you spread to others.
Love, light and laughter from Chez xo
You have such a strong spirit. Wishing you well.
Oh sweetie! I am sorry you had such a hard week. I am glad that you are home and I hope you get to stay home and feel better and get some more sun and happy moments and days. Love and hugs and many prayers. xoxo
you really are an amazing amazing woman, vicki. thank you so much.
anything i can do, please let me know.
♥
kj
I was away on holiday with my family when I suddenly thought of you. I wanted to find a quiet place, but it seemed impossible. And then, in the midst of a water park, with the shrieks and laughter of children ringing in my ears, I found it.
I took photos of old Trees and a quiet River and sent Reiki blessings to you. I know the Universe was listening.
Your spirit is strong. I'm really glad you're home, sweetie...xx
ah vicki, i see you have the blessings of marion. that is gold.
love
kj
THANKYOU ALL SO MUCH!!!
BIG HUGE (((HUGS))) & *KISSES*
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
You keep me swimming X:-)
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