and some are just a little more fragile...
Let me explain...
i will be officially (in 31 days) the mother of 3 ~teenagers~
(2 girls & 1 boy)
with one stepping into her teenage years
and one in the 'muddle'(middle) of them
by November i will have my firstborn stepping into her adulthood
(In Australia that is 18yrs)...
And to be quite honest with you...
i'm just not so sure that i'm ready
Yet!
Because i'm still a little confused about the boundaries
of this my ~motherly job~
and still feeling my way in the semi-darkness
doing a tentative 4 step dance
around my children's lives
making mistakes (that's okay)
and learning by them (just as i should)
but it's all still so tricky...
sometimes!
So i try to lead by example
and then find i need to change all of my ways!
i try to speak with experience
and then scramble to lock up my diaries!
i try to help... by helping (!!!)
only to find i'm just entertaining my own fears!
and when i try to step back into the shadows
then there are tears that i am not being there when i should!
i try to be unlike MY mum
and then find that i really should not
And i know i am just doing my best~est
and that's something i always strive to do
but perhaps i should just be who i am then
but does anyone know who that really is?
Oh for gOOdness sake!
Who 'thunked' up this game anyway?
and where did they hide the damn rules book!
Thankyou dearest Sandy
for my ~beautiful~ gifts
How did you know!?!
*kisses*
<3
11 comments:
I read recently:
Don't be nice, be real.
For me it's something about no longer trying to be nicer than I am. (which is somehow different than trying to do the right thing.)
Now I am thoroughly confused, teehee.
Lol! You have me all figured out!
you are sooooooo welcome! As a mom of three( 19,16, and 11 today). We are suppose to lead by example, yet they need to be given independence. Were our mom's way off or possibly right on top of it all? Look how we turned out, loving caring, sensitive, wise women. IDK, I struggle too.
LOVE to you dear Vicki. You are not alone!
xoxoxoxo
*Kisses* & (((Hugs))) Beautiful One x
I am soooooooooooooooooooooo hearing you, Vicki.
Be yourself, your children will model themselves on a stranger if you don't.♥
it is really hard to believe .
on these photos YOU look like a teenager .
did you start to have kids with what age ?
5 years old ?
the coolest part about parenting - and i have two teenagers - is that there are no rules. none. you create them if you need them, you break them if they don't work, you negotiate them if you want to share the power out . . . there's not many big pieces that give you that kind of freedom. steven
Natalie <3 <3 <3
CF You are my new best~est friend! Lol!
Steven, Thankyou x
I bet you are a wonderful mom and that you worry too much. Your kids are lucky ducks :-).
xoxo
I'm on the other side of motherhood, and now watching my baby have babies. We are close, and now we can laugh about the "teen" years... Whew... but you never, ever take off your mothering hat. It just fits so well, and they will always want to bask in its shade. <3 I have no doubt you are a wonderful mother. That rule book is ever elusive... :0
Annie & Lille Diane <3 <3
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