My Dearest Barry...

i have a story for you
that i know you will appreciate...
i only wish i had the elegance of Your words
to tell this little story in a fashion that would Honor
the Friendship that you have Always shared with me...

While i was out today...
and i know it's tomorrow already...
(4am Thursday to be precise ~here~)
i came across a small brass bell in a second hand shop
and i thought of ~You~
and i picked it up and rang it...

and a voice nagged inside of me...

but i hushed it

And when i then came across a shop attendant ~there~
who smiled at me and spoke of Spirit people
and of such other~worldly things...

i distracted myself
...and hushed the voice again
shhhh...

Because i just didn't want to hear dear Barry

and yesterday...
when an Eagle came
the first i have ever seen in my neighborhood
in all these years
when he came
and all the birds called out and sang in chorus around me
and he even circled so slowly above my head three times
and for a moment, like a year, i was wrapped in His *magic*

Even as my Heart began to ache

Still i closed my ears...

Dear Barry

Even when a Beautiful Black Crow came to me...
to tell me...
his mouth full of brightly colored feathers
preparing so early i thought?
and i found myself wondering...

Thinking that such moments...
are rarely without meaning in my Life

Then a Kookaburra came
and sat upon a white stone Angel
in a beautiful garden
over a bird bath
and even as those i sat with
... began to cry

Still i didn't understand why inexplicably

my Heart began to ~sing~

and my head lifted from my earthly place
into Heavenly Realms

and a joy filled my Being

Even when i saw you while in a dream~scape
in a beautiful garden and You ~smiled~ at me
still i wouldn't recognize you Dearest Friend

Because i just didn't want to hear it Barry
what the birds had come to tell me
as they sang their song across the miles
when they heard the Angels whisper

that you had ~left~ us...

My Dear Friend

And as i passed your blog
after waking in these early hours
when that small voice called me again
insistently...

i couldn't help but ~Listen~
this time

And now i cry my tears of sorrow
for you Barry...
and tears of relief
for you Barry...
and tears of joy for ~You~

~Barry~


For now i understand what that nagging voice has been inside my Heart
now i understand what my visitors have been trying to tell me

And through my burning tears
i will ask just one little thing of you...
Dear Barry
just promise me one small thing...
my Dear Friend

That you won't go too Far~Away

For i ~miss~ You already

<3