THE LITTLE TRAIN THAT SAID... "I think l can..."
I have had some "thoughts" this evening about persistence...
My eldest daughter has spent quite some of her valuable time just recently (during the middle of her busy exam term) to set up a website in the hope that it will inspire, help and support others (primarily teenagers such as herself) with eating disorders. She has had to do quite a bit of research in amongst her studying and working and sport, to try out quite a lot of new ideas to learn about how to put together this type of forum site, only to discover (after we had sent out all the inviting emails) that the very site she had chosen to support others with their self esteem issues, had an advertising system that advertised the very subjects that she was 'in battle' against... Media (!!!) in all it's inviting lies and torturous tormenting and sneaky little subtle ways preaching, in this case, about the 'perfect' body size and illusions and lies about the portrayal of women in society... She herself battled for a couple of years the debilitating anorexia and sees this very advertising as one of the main issues for debate when considering the causes of eating disorders and teenage suicide... Where is the escape from it all?!! I yell (Much to my cats disgust!) But l thank God that my daughter eventually came out the other side, into the light and back to us again... She travelled this road with all of our family's support but essentially it had to come from somewhere inside herself, from that place within herself that no-one else could enter... For it was within the house of her soul that she needed to reach and find the strength to go on... I watched helpless at times while she was lost in this disease, wanting it to be me, but knowing in my heart that this illness was about her... About how she felt about herself and where she felt was her place in this world... It took a lot of determination and courage for her to survive that journey and l will be forever in awe of the strength she showed and the beauty of her spirit... And so this 'website set back' is extremely frustrating to me when l know that she is just trying to give back and share the insights she gained and although l know sometimes that our lessons, come wrapped in dark clouds and look scary, yet l still get annoyed and wonder "Why?!!" ...But then l look at her and l stand in wonder at my daughters attitude of "Don't worry so much mum, it will all be ok" For she teaches me still, that if we can just find the will within to keep stepping forward, one day at a time, one moment at a time, we can survive the storm, find strengths before unknown and discover the beauty of the lessons wrapped within... My daughter has travelled this road many times before, as have, and do, so many of her peers but l can't help but feel sad in times like these when it just seems a constant "battle out there." l feel frustration that it needs to be this way, when times seemed so much simpler when l was her age... But on she will go and move through this little hurdle, to find the rainbow contained within it all she will...
I have had some "thoughts" this evening about persistence...
My eldest daughter has spent quite some of her valuable time just recently (during the middle of her busy exam term) to set up a website in the hope that it will inspire, help and support others (primarily teenagers such as herself) with eating disorders. She has had to do quite a bit of research in amongst her studying and working and sport, to try out quite a lot of new ideas to learn about how to put together this type of forum site, only to discover (after we had sent out all the inviting emails) that the very site she had chosen to support others with their self esteem issues, had an advertising system that advertised the very subjects that she was 'in battle' against... Media (!!!) in all it's inviting lies and torturous tormenting and sneaky little subtle ways preaching, in this case, about the 'perfect' body size and illusions and lies about the portrayal of women in society... She herself battled for a couple of years the debilitating anorexia and sees this very advertising as one of the main issues for debate when considering the causes of eating disorders and teenage suicide... Where is the escape from it all?!! I yell (Much to my cats disgust!) But l thank God that my daughter eventually came out the other side, into the light and back to us again... She travelled this road with all of our family's support but essentially it had to come from somewhere inside herself, from that place within herself that no-one else could enter... For it was within the house of her soul that she needed to reach and find the strength to go on... I watched helpless at times while she was lost in this disease, wanting it to be me, but knowing in my heart that this illness was about her... About how she felt about herself and where she felt was her place in this world... It took a lot of determination and courage for her to survive that journey and l will be forever in awe of the strength she showed and the beauty of her spirit... And so this 'website set back' is extremely frustrating to me when l know that she is just trying to give back and share the insights she gained and although l know sometimes that our lessons, come wrapped in dark clouds and look scary, yet l still get annoyed and wonder "Why?!!" ...But then l look at her and l stand in wonder at my daughters attitude of "Don't worry so much mum, it will all be ok" For she teaches me still, that if we can just find the will within to keep stepping forward, one day at a time, one moment at a time, we can survive the storm, find strengths before unknown and discover the beauty of the lessons wrapped within... My daughter has travelled this road many times before, as have, and do, so many of her peers but l can't help but feel sad in times like these when it just seems a constant "battle out there." l feel frustration that it needs to be this way, when times seemed so much simpler when l was her age... But on she will go and move through this little hurdle, to find the rainbow contained within it all she will...
And so on this cold dark evening (It's Winter in AussyLand) as l contemplate the "slings and arrows" and l think about my daughter as the little steam train battling up the hill saying... "I think l can, l think l can!" l will take this time to wish you all love and strength of spirit to move forward through your battles and trials ...and to say to you to KNOW that there is a "reason" that you will find along the way and KNOW that you will have a beautiful tale to tell at the end of it all... For my daughter has taught me this is so...
I send my love and wish strength at this time to: Suzi Blu and her heart ache, to my next door neighbour and her health trials, to my wonderful friend in Tassy and his health trials,my friend down the road and her sick mum, to the lady a couple of doors down about to face a double mastectomy... and to all of us in our different trials may we remember tonight that we are indeed spirits on a human journey, all here to find that place within ourselves that harbours the answers to our spirit and may we all find the Peace, Love and Grace that lies therein x
I send my love and wish strength at this time to: Suzi Blu and her heart ache, to my next door neighbour and her health trials, to my wonderful friend in Tassy and his health trials,my friend down the road and her sick mum, to the lady a couple of doors down about to face a double mastectomy... and to all of us in our different trials may we remember tonight that we are indeed spirits on a human journey, all here to find that place within ourselves that harbours the answers to our spirit and may we all find the Peace, Love and Grace that lies therein x
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