i am thinking about lots of things today... and my brain is ready to EXPLODE!
When you are not so mobile, sometimes your brain will go into overload!
So please excuse my indulgence but today i am setting them free... (The thoughts that is)...
FYI: Each * is a thinking, thorting, "THOUGHT" bumping against the inside of ma skull! Be gone into the woelde of "doing" you bumping, twisting, thoughts!...So Be it!!!
*i must find the enthusiasm to clean my workroom as it has turned back into a laundry somehow! How/when did that happen??? ...And heaven forbid that i should kick the proverbial bucket suddenly and without warning and leave such a nasty chore for my family! (i could NEVER Rest In Peace then!)
*i must write a 'final blog' and tell someone my password
(Just in case i get hit by a bus!)
*i must write a will and organize my funeral... Well why not? My mum has already started a payment plan!...And afteral you know me (She says to herself!) i must always have the last word! Lol!
...Hmmm my thoughts are decidedly morbid~ish... but i will puddle on... They MUST be freed!
*i must make sure each of the kids can cook something other than noodles and toasted sandwiches... (i have bought a blank recipe book already... so that's a good start!)
*i must buy a new floor mop (Oh wait i did that already!) Well i must let the family know that i now have one for the main floors and one for bathrooms... (i know, i know, weird little quirks... Let's just go easy on oneself and put it down to chemo damaged brain cells... Primarily the ocd ones!)
*Actually i really must write a 'letter' for my kids, each individually, for their 21st's... (You know just in case!)
...i must!?! (i must! i must! i must improve ma bust!) Why am i "must~ing"??? How about i say... "i will?" ...(This is fast turning into a to do list!)
*i will meditate more (Well meditate period! i have been sooo slack of late!)
*i will investigate more about the Nanoknife/Cyberknife before meeting new Specialists
*i will eat! S'cuse me... Back in a tic!
*That's better... i will remember to make my art diary~ing more of a habit than i have of late (Thanks Zom!) ...She did some fabulous posts on habits recently...
*i will weed the vegie patches so that we can plant some stuff in them! (i will get Son to help)
*Talking about said "Son" ...i will somehow devise a sneaky plan to get him out of his room more often! (Damn that decision to allow him a computer in there!) ...As we all know plants need sunlight and fresh air to grow healthy! ...R u listening said son?!! ~i love You~
*i will visit Aunty Lucy & Uncle Ted... i will, i will...
*i will get the arial man in to fix the telly reception (So 'Master Chef' won't be so fuzzy and we will git all them 16 free channels! Whoo! Hoo!)
*i will get some decent curtaining for the kids bedrooms (Wooden Venetians for Son's room)
*i will get a new garbage bin (kitchen) and loo toilet brushes (x2)
*i will do my Chrissy card/s list early this year (i know it's early BUT i said that last year and they didn't even get sent!)
*i will call the re-stumping guy back to fix the slooooooping kitchen... So that i can think about renovating the poor 'ol thing! (One thing at a time of course, i'm not made of money!!!)
*i will sweep the Autumn leaves orf tha decking... AGAIN!!!
*i will... STOP now! (i'm exhausted) That's enough letting out of thoughts for one day!
*wink*
11 comments:
I am seeing a correlation of personalities here...LOl!
Just start at the most pressing and work down the list. If it gives you peace to air them, or do them, or not, so be it.
What ever works for you in the moment is the right thing.
Love ya to bits.xx
You're thinking too much. I think.
Yes, you can wear yourself out with too much thinking — it's the frustration of thinking without being able to do. It's a no-no.
Think relaxing thoughts. Think happy thoughts. Think of things which will help you you heal.
*Smiley face*
That was oddly interesting. Who would have guessed?
I answered your question about negative thoughts under a comment on my first post about habits. What works for me. <3 <3
Your so lovely, and full of so much love for your family.
Theres a little girl who lives next door to me, who lost her mum to cancer two years ago. She moved in with her dad. I thought she'd take it really hard. She's such a strong liitle character and I feel so proud, shes 9 years old now. Theres so much love for her. Being a mother is so hard as these loved ones are the hardest to stop worrying about. You're going to look after them no matter where you are. Either side. I would write your letters to them. These will come in great comfort for them. It must be so hard for you to be thinking all this, I'm so proud of you and feel heart broken at the same time. Don't worry about the house. My grandad always use to tell my mum to rest,the house would be there tomorrow and maybe mum wouldn't, your more important.
God took me to see him in the darkness of time once and it was just a switch of perception, so gentle and I was still with my family. Loads of love!
Julie
Much better, when I'm in a worrying mode, to write down what is whirling through the mind. I find when I write things down, I've taken thoughts out and away from the endless circling.
I am so proud to call you my friend. You're one of the strongest people I know...xx
That is one big list of 'must's and 'will's - I just came here after reading your comment on my blog, so I will now have to familiarize myself with your blog a bit.
Hope you're having a good day down under.
Michelle
Get a grip on it girl, pull yore self together. Women are known for their multitasking ability. While you are in the cocoon stage little caterpillar. Make nice with the bathroom, sweep the leaves, journal jupiter and your heart on a page, there is an eclipse today, our planets and stellar bodies are aligned, this draws our energies and expression in similar alignments with the wish tree, a butterfly favorite. So before you draw down your wings and show your colors for the day, make a wish. Dream it to be true. Somewhere I read when the steller bodies align its known as sygywgy. My spelling is wrong, but instead of asteriks of where your thoughts are landing, think of aligning them and direct your attention to putting things in order in your journal. When was the last time you looked up a misspelled word, certainly not while sitting on the bathroom floor with a sponge in your hand. Take joy with your tasks, keep writing it brings joy to those around you as well. Relax the sun and moon will soon move out of our way, silly objects.
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Wow Now I need a rest after all that!!
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