The Doc rang tonight with not so good news...
Cancer markers are up...
This means i need to look at a different hormone treatment (Tamoxifen)
and some local treatment... Perhaps the Nanoknife?
And/or more chemo...
(Geez just when i was getting used to hair again and all!)
All is not lost...
i just hate the look on my kids faces...
Makes me want to lie or at least hide the truth...
And my husband (who is still at work)...
Complains when i ask him to pick up a bit of shopping on the way home
i feel like SCREAMING at him...
"What if i wasn't ~here~ at all! How much harder would THAT be!!!"
i have nightmares that my eldest daughter would feel that she needs to fill my shoes...
if i wasn't here... i would HATE her to waste her life like that!
Therefore...
"GO AWAY STOOOOOOPID LITTLE CANCER THINGIES"
i'm too busy for such nonsense i tell ya!
"RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!"
(That's my scary go away voice!)
<3
9 comments:
OH FFS!!! Give me an axe and a phone booth too! I will come down there and bang him on the head with my crutches.
Sweetie, this world is still needing your input for sure. I am really sorry the news was FUCKED.I wish i could DOOOO something.♥
You already have my lovely Natalie... You are holding my hand... and i ~Love~ you soooo much for that (((Hugs))) xox
Impossible for me to describe my feelings of anger and disappointment at this time. Can but say I wish you all the luck in the world in your battle.
My daughter is at this moment in the Hull Royal Infirmary for a consultation with a brain surgeon. I am anxious in the extreme as I wait for Clare to phone me with the outcome. I cannot bear to think of my darling daughter going under the knife in order to cut out this insidious and hateful tumour. We live on a knife-edge of hope.
My wife was upset to learn that this pineal gland tumour actually grew in the womb. So I am trying to convince her that it's NOT her fault. Life IS a bitch!
ARRRGGGHHHHHH! This is my scary-go-away-voice joining in unison with yours and all who love you.
I hear all that you are thinking - remember that your family loves you more than anything....you are an extraordinary woman - you have so much beauty (with or without hair), grace, courage and humour.
BELIEVE...... BELIEVE.... I am and I am sending you every ounce of strength I have.
Love to you, dear Vicki.... stay strong.... I MEAN IT!!!!!!!
Love, and more Love,
♥ Robin ♥
Men have no idea sometimes. Maybe letting off steam is just what you need.
We could turn it into therapy. I just might join you.
Oh dear! Oh DEAR! OH DEAR!!!
This was not the news for which we were eagerly waiting.
The "stupid little cancer thingies" are not minding their manners. Ill-behaved little oafs!
Maybe if enough of us used our scary "go away" voices together, we could frighten off the little critters, and they would never come back.
I'd like to do something for you, but I'm not sure what (besides yelling). Maybe if I just sat and held your paw — I mean hand — you would feel better.
Hmmmm. Bear sits and thinks.
i got stuck on your husband giving you a hard time until i realized there are bigger concerns. i am sorry for this news, vicki. i know it will not drain your spirit and i so understand your concern about your daughter. this is such a weight for a mother and her children. it always amazed me how matter of fact renee was about her prognosis, how heartily she refused to do anything other than live in the present, fully.
and you do this too. do you mind my references to renee, vicki? it is because you are both warriors guarding your clan.
love
kj
I wonder what made all the cancer markers go down again...
Hee!Hee! Love you DDZ! <3
Am ~sending~ all the ~Love~ i can muster to your daughter dear Philip... Can you feel it???
Thankyou Robin, i nearly fell orff ma chair with all that noise! Would've thunk such a delicate soul had such a 'scary voice' Lol! (((Hugs)))
Ok Angela, lets do it together! AAaaaarrrggghhhhh! Well THAT feels better... How 'bout you??? *Giggle* xox
Dear Rob, There is nothing like being offered a paw, Thankyou XOX
kj i am honored to be compared to such a Lioness... Luv u *kisses*
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