Monday, June 6, 2011

Pain is a pain?



What is pain?
When i sit with pain i find i tend to fight it...
React to it... emotionally and physically... i 'cease up'
i assume it's bad and i put it in the category of "bad" in my mind
and i forget... that 'pain' is actually my body 'speaking' to me

If i 'listen' to pain i find pain is my teacher...
If i close my eyes and release myself to pain
i find a large part of my "pain" is my 'reaction' to it...
When i analyze my feelings about pain...
i realize i should rename my pain... "Fear"

I still take pain meds, for pain is not my 'friend'
but i find that in my listening to pain
i need pain relief less...
And in my listening to pain
i am taught more about myself



(Ps) i (((hug))) cancer and she cries

xox

9 comments:

Zom said...

I have heard about this but never been able to go there. Good for you.

Anonymous said...

Bless you so much, your in pain and managed to send me a lovely message. Sending love to you.
Nanci Danison share a way of pain and healing help. If you sit and imagine your outside your body sending healing love to where your poorly.
When I shut my eyes and imagined love coming your way I saw a large row of privit trees, like it was travelling to you.
Loads of love!

Unknown said...

Sending you love and healing rays of the Purple Flame. That is the ray of healing energy from the universe to me, from me to you. It will enter through your head chakra and flow into your entire system. Blessings
QMM

Annie said...

Nolly, You are so wise and brave.
Lots of love and hugs coming your way.
xoxo

Robin said...

You truly are inspirational.... what courage - what presence...you have taught me so much in the 18 months since we *met*....(including how to alter the size of my video clips)! A-ha-ha!
Do you remember that?

You are beautiful and wise....and every day I think of you - and send you all my strength.... my Renee candle contines to burn.....

BELIEVE.

Love,

♥ Robin ♥

Unknown said...

Love to you and your pain and cancer. Love heals all xoxo

kj said...

vicki, i won't pretty up my reaction. that you have to deal with pain sucks. it totally sucks, and i am sorry for it.

you are brave and wise. you bring renee's wisdom back so easily, which is no surprise since the bravery and wisdom is your own as well.

thank you for this beautiful courageous perspective. you may not know that i think of you most days, vicki, and i pray for your well being. fuck cancer.

love
kj

Snowbrush said...

Good luck there with that. Thinking about pain rather than trying to flee in horror from a force that can move faster than you can has to have something good to be said for it.

Having built up such a tolerance to narcotics that they've become a waste of time, I'm just starting to look into getting a prescription for medical marijuana. Some states here--including mine--permit it, but the federal government is ever threatening to bust growers, doctors, users, and so forth, so it's a crazy sort of a situation, but then that's America for you.

nollyposh said...

(((Hugs))) to everyone <3 Especially *You* Snow (Ps)My sister suggested that but i get paranoid on the stuff (Experienced it in my early 20's) Ah well!