(painting by Liliya Popova)
i know that it's silly!
and i certainly do not want sympathy
and for gOOdness sake...
we didn't ~die~
in the bushfires
and we didn't lose our home
and my kids are all ~safe~ now
BUT i can't help the anger i feel
and i can't seem to stop the ~tears~
that reluctantly come
at the most unexpected moments
don't be silly!
i say to myself
but ~myself~ doesn't seem to hear
and distractions don't seem to last long
and i find my mind wandering
to the ~children~
who died
and how close it came to being
my children too...
and my heart palpitates
in the night hours
when all is silent
and my Lara says
that her ~heart~
hurts
too
x
9 comments:
oh vicki, my heart hurts for you and laura and the children too. You are not being silly, you are being you, the loving caring soul that you are. closing my eyes, as tears stream down, and reaching out my hand to you to hold TIGHT! love you!!!!!
There has been a trauma..I hope writing it down helps you feel better. Take care.
Breeze
How could you not feel the sorrow?
xxx
Vicki, you are experiencing the NORMAL reactions to trauma.
There are many steps in the healing process.
We will walk with you, and with all the others too. Let it out,darling.xx
Well put - strongly and truly put.
Oh, how very sad. I hurt for you and for your Lara.
yes, the grief reaction- a part of the process- rage at the injustice Vicki, cry for the loss- it is your right as a survivor, your path to true acceptance of the enw world you are in
Lisax
Hi Vicki...I haven't been here for awhile, and for that I apologize. What an awful thing you all have gone through, as a family, as a nation. I am thankful that you and yours were not injured physically, but I know that you suffer emotional pain. Keep writing your beautiful words, that will help. Your blog is so lovely, as are you. I am adding you to my bloglist. Thank you.
xox
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