Going ~home~

If you take your attention deeply into the inner body, you may reach this point,

this singularity,

where the world dissolves into the unmanifested and the Unmanifested takes on the form as the energy stream of Chi, which then becomes the world.

This is the point of birth and death.

When consciousness is directed outwards, mind and world arises.

When it is directed inwards, it realises its own source and returns home.

Then when Consciousness comes back into the manifested world, you have resumed the name and form you had temporarily relinquished.

You have a name, a past, a life situation, and a future.

But in one essential respect you are not the same person as before.

You will have glimpsed the reality within yourself, which is not of this world, the two are not separate.

Ekhart Tolle

i had my dearest darling Grandfathers funeral today
and these words by Ekhart Tolle say something to me...
about my experience...

i was joyful when my Grandfather peacefully left his tired old body
i saw it
and i felt it
and my heart sang for ~joy~
for days...

and then i woke up one morning
and my loss suddenly hit me
my Grandfather had returned to his ~beautiful essence~
his ~true self~ again
and so never again would i know this gentle man
as such, in the flesh
again

and i was flung by my ego into the deepest sorrow by this knowledge
never again would i be able to embrace my beautiful Pa
never again would his blue eyes sing to me
~never again~
will i know him as
~my Pa~

this experience of him is over

i will never stop loving him
as will all that have ever known him
never stop
loving him

this ~beautiful~ day was proof of this

but truth is
his spirit is returned
this experience is lived
and the ~beautiful~ moment is over

he is back into the essence of self again
he has returned
~home~

and truly lucky have i been
to have known such a spirit
who has reflected in the flesh
what was essentially his soul
to have shared in this amazing journey
with this dear, dear spirit
who i called ~Pa~

has been a ~gift~

of the ~highest~ order

and so i Thankyou my dearest one
for teaching me the true meaning
of this essentially ~beautiful~ truth

i will love you
for always

as i ~always~ have

vicki

xox

photo by: http://lightproofbox.com/blog/road-to-heaven/