One girl's journey

When i meditate... i 'travel' a certain way...
i begin with the seascape, the beach of my childhood
i feel the sand between my toes and the sun warm on my face
i then turn and swim up an inlet, from the sea to a deep inland pool
which is fed by a mountain waterfall, crystal clear
i climb up the rocks, that lay just beyond,
so that now the waterfall is behind me
and i find myself on a smooth rock entrance
to a cave...
usually at the entrance i find a 'gift'
a flower, a crystal, a bead, a necklace...
that i scoop up and place on the rocky altar just inside
to give ~Thanks~
Everything has ~meaning~ here in this magical place
and sometimes this small gift will set the pace for the
~journey within~

This cave area is round...
and set into the walls all around
are ~doorways~

There is also a beautiful white marble fountain
in this entrance area, like something to be found in Italy
where clear water falls and sparkles...
It is a ~healing pool~

i have bought people here for healing
it is a ~love space~ where i feel i can help
when i often feel helpless
in the 'real worlde'...
i once bought those i 'thought' needed healing
(in all my naivety but good intention)
only to discover, ~another~ had bought herself along
...to let me know? perhaps? that she was not long for this world
a month later she was diagnosed with an inoperable brain tumor
and died six months later
i like to think my Aunty came to say goodbye
for i never saw her in the flesh again before she died


i have been through many of the doors here
depending upon the journey at the time...
but not all
yet...

i know on the right, behind a dark heavy old oak door
with rusted metal strips nailed in long ago
there is a little old Chinese man, on an ornate chair
who sits upon a few steps, so that he sits a little higher than me
the air is heavy in here with a sweet woody incense
and is dark and calming...
He doesn't say much, and smiles a lot, like the Dali Lama
but when he does speak, his words are beautifully
~simple and wise~

To the left, behind a white door
there is an amazing 'medicine conservatory'
that is round and filled with light from the beautiful ceiling to floor windows
and the glass roof above
the light in here falls in colorful streams
reflected through the thousands of medicine bottles
on glass shelves all around...
that are filled with colorful pills, like the lollie jars of my youth
and in the middle is a REALLY comfy chair...
i come here when i need medicine WITHOUT all the man-made side effects
i came here when i was going through chemo
...and beyond the windows is a magnificent shining crystal city

One of the doorways directly opposite the cave entrance
doesn't have a door and leads deep into the earth
through long dark, warm, red dirt tunnels
(Like the pathways of ants that always fascinated me as a child)
and here i have often traveled to my past
via sacred passageways
and sometimes further beyond...

Another doorway on the left is covered in vines
(Just like 'The Secret Garden' a favorite childhood book)
and has a big heavy brass ring
that i have to turn to enter...
into a magnificent forest canopy
full of green light streaming through the trees
and chattering 'little' birds flitting amongst the leaves
It is here on an olde stone bench
under an ancient old tree
that i come to speak to my dad
and those others who might wish to speak
from beyond...

One of my most favorite places
is a doorway that leads to an under ground lake
a place deep in the earth's caves
with ceilings that are filled with thousands of tiny ~Glow Worms~
(Like the ones i visited in New Zealand as a child)
It is here one time that i met with an ancient Egyptian Goddess
who taught me, how to help myself to ~heal~
At the time i had not heard of Sekhmet???
(and perhaps until then she had not heard of me either! lol!)
But there she was in all her Egyptian finery
...with a lions head mask!!!
(THAT's what made it easy to research her later)
and do you know the more i learn about this amazing Goddess
the more in awe i am
so simple were her teachings and yet so ~powerful~
she taught me that in order to heal my physical body
i had to picture my physical self in perfection
To me she was kind and earth motherly
and not all the destructive one of ancient myths

...and do you know what?
It NEVER ceases to amaze me how this ~inner place~
is so full of ancient wisdom and mysteries and stories
SO outside of my current earthy knowledge
and yet so practical and helpful
(especially with the health journey i have recently had)...
i can't explain it any more than to see it as a *magical* process
that has simply required my belief
well maybe ~belief~ is the wrong word (as a 'comment' kindly pointed out)
perhaps it is more the suspension of my limited belief systems
that allows the space for this mystery?
or maybe it is just plain old co-incidence?
But i would personally prefer to think of it as a blessed ~synchronicity~

i am learning all the time of course
and do not claim any great wisdom
because of these ~journeys~
i am simply writing my 'stuff' here
and sending it out to the ~Universe~
to touch or dissipate
who knows
but grateful and blessed i am
for the journey...

and for those who choose to share it with me

tHAt'S yOu i gueSS

so ~Thanks~

oh and (ps) to leave this lovely meditation

...i simply ~swim~ back...

to the sand between my toes

...and then my opened eyes






X:-)