This is an email i sent off today...
Hey Cous X:-)
Damn! just got in and checked my emails (2pm) so i guess i've probably missed you guys for a coffee and catch up now??? (Am sending you a text)...
Coincidently (regarding you mentioning breast reconstructions) i have been out today catching up with a girlfriend who has had a full reconstruction to get her 'low down' (she has had breast cancer too)... Did you know that they pull a muscle (intact) from your stomach and sew it in place to create that new boob?!? It really is an invasive operation and then on the other hand, if i went down the implant road i would have to do both (because they can't match your 'regular' boob like a reconstruction can-if you're lucky that is)... So again an unnecessary invasive 'extra' op (and quite frankly i'd rather NOT make that other boobie mad!) so i'm still leaning towards a prosthesis, they look so natural in a bra that you would never know, amazingly realistic (i'd just have to have sex with my bra on for the rest of my life! Lol! No biggie!) X;-)
Yep, my spirits are still up, except that i am going to a funeral tomorrow with my girls, for a man who last week was happily married, healthy, in his mid to early 40's with 3 kids...He died suddenly on Sunday night of meningococcal... He was my girls 'kids club/youth group' leader... His family are, as is our local community, devastated... It has been a hard last week for my kids, what with my diagnosis and then poor Milton's death... But we must go through these motions i say, for this is the stuff of life and we cannot runaway from it... i feel blessed to have been given a little more time in this world, how ever long that may be... for any of us... Poor dear Milton did not get to say goodbye to his kids, i still get to hold mine and kiss them, i am the lucky one...
Luv Vicki xox
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Big blow out *sigh* and feeling love for you.
I think I would be inclined for the prothesis too. I have a friend who has one boob and doesn't even bother to wear a prothesis. She just goes one boobed and somehow it works. She isn't a 'big girl', but then neither am I. I guess you could always change your mind later if you wanted.
Something else about my friend. We have both recently modeled nude for a friend of ours, a painter who is doing a series of middle-aged women naked (actually it has to do with fairies and a fantastical kind of surrealistic scene). I was a bit self-conscious about the nudity just when all my bits are falling, but there was my friend, 15 years my senior and one boobed, baring all - what could I do? I took it all off for art.
And we are the lucky ones to know you.
You're right that it's a part of life and to be grateful for where you are now. I find these things to be very much double edged... they bring up all the big questions (again!) that we thought we had some kind of place for and at the same time root us very squarely RIGHT IN THE PRESENT moment, with true joy for being here and having what good we do have while we have it.
I think I might try the prosthetic as well. Can the other operation be done at any time in the future if you want?
Hi DeeDee and Sydney X:-) Yep i can reconstruct later down the track if i feel that i need to, so that is a comfort... Feels like i have time to breathe, to take this a step at a time...
LOVE that story DeeDee thankyou so much... It IS all about how you feel from the inside isn't it... perhaps that is the journey i will now travel... self acceptance (with a vengeance!) and yes Sydney it has SLAMMED be back into the present moment again where everything is beautiful and tender and magical... i will hang onto this... i will... Thankyou girls so much for caring enough to share your hearts with me... i cannot express just how much it means to me... right now... in this very moment X:-) XOX
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