~conversations~

...thoughts between two 'bosom buddies' :


"Hey there yourself

When you said you and I could be bookends

I was seeing us as a duet doing a cancer comedy routine

Next thought is FUCK

I have a small problem myself and I need to get checked out

I'm already scared myself and for you too

I don't think I could handle cancer again

Having already been where you are about to go

how frightening for you

OK u want to live or u want to die

having the breast removed is best option

I dont care anymore that I'm missing one, it doesn't change me as the person I really am

apart from that thought, I had cancer and it might come back that was my big depression

When I met you, you gave me a new lease on life. fuck it I'm going to live my life now instead of worrying

You havent told me how bad it is and the rest

and I'm told chemo has greatly been improved

Maybe think of it as a boob job that went wrong

(it can always be replaced later)

you will loose that extra 5 lbs (except not from your butt)!!!

The one thing that will help after op is a small pillow roll to place under arm to help with drainage

I've got one here

RING ME so we can talk or meet ASAP

or anytime u need to talk

I will be here for you

love ya xx

I just met a schoolfriend from 30yrs back and he;s just been diagnosed with blood cancer

If this is karma

WHAT THE FUCK DID WE DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

"Hey chickie X:-)

Book the doc and i will come with you

(give me a couple of days after Thursday for recoup though!)

or we could go today... i will ring you...

you are not alone remember...

and you have done as much for me as i have you...

it is our destiny remember, to be bosom buddies...

i survive, you survive...

don't buy into the fear!

(she says shaking in her boots lol!)

we MUST hang out more...

i'm sorry i have been so slack...

i started losing my focus for my life...

i get depressed, close off...

and look what happens!

in order to stay in our lives, we need purpose!

i KNOW this...

even if it is to be there for each other...

i'm sorry i've been so slack

perhaps we should pick a day a week...

and meet regularly? Book ourselves in for keeping in touch?

what do you think???

i will ring you today...

WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol!

Luv ya too X:-)

Vicki xox

(ps) karma is over now... in the past... no such thing in these enlightened times...

it's about the energy of our bodies and how much fear we teach the cells of our bodies to hang on to...

i'm thinking yoga would be a good start to releasing the crap from my cells... you?

xox

i'm going to have a shower and ring you

(pPs) no chemo this time (well so far)

i guess you never know until they get the bugga/cancer in their hands hey!

...just got the call from the hospital breast care nurse...

she confirmed the whole chemo thing and said to keep in mind that i may need to look at hormone therapy...

sighhhh that means that they will pressure me next about having my ovaries removed

(because of the whole family history/blood clotting thing)...sighhh

things are never as cut and dried as my Capricorn spirit would like X;-/ "