whispers from beyond

when my dad died in 1998 (that's him on the left)
i thought that i would die too
it's a long story, his story and mine
but at the essence of our dance, his and mine
was (and still is, as you will see)...
~unconditional love~
i always knew that and so did he
i loved my dad no matter what and that was that...
and ALWAYS down in my deepest, deepest heart
although at times he found it hard to let me know
i always knew...
that he loved me too

so when he up and died so suddenly
on that day in '98
i took it personally...

and there was pain
a terrible pain that went so deep
that i had an actual physical pain
in my heart...
it was a real, actual, physical ache that consumed my every waking moment
for a year...

until i met a wonderful lady called Merrium Cross
who just happened to be a spiritual medium...

she took me by the hand
and lit a candle
and together we crossed the veil
to my beloved father

and later that afternoon
after she had dried my tears
and i was alone again with my thoughts
i felt my heart was full of love again...

and so with my recent health issues of reoccurring cancer
i called out to my dad to come close to me again
i so needed his support
i so needed to know that he was taking care of me
i so needed to know what my heart kept telling me
and that was that it wasn't my turn to die

and then i was presented with an opportunity...
on the 2nd of September (this month) i received an email
a monthly newsletter from the website of a well known Australian medium
called Anthony Grzelka
my heart whispered to me that this was the chance...
to speak with my dad again

QUOTE:
"A big hello to all this month and what a month it has been. With the release of my new book “Life & Beyond" now finalized and the book now available in all good book shops, including Big W stores, its go go go on a promotional tour of the East Coast of Australia……HAVE YOU GOT YOUR TICKETS YET?

I have just returned from Sydney and met some wonderful people in Camden at a sold out library event there. What a wonderful evening that was, lots of great readings and discussions about all things spiritual. Those in Sydney and indeed around Australia look out for me appearing on "Mornings with Kerri Anne" on the 18th of September on Channel 9. I will be chatting with Kerri Anne about the new book and even doing a few readings (a little tip get in early and email Kerri Anne asking for a reading as I will be choosing a few to do from the emails)"

...can you see?
my heart called to me...
...can you see dad?
...can you hear me dad?
i called back...
so with 'Connie like' determination (!!!)
i sent an email with just my photo and my name and my phone number...

and this morning i received a phone call
to ask if i would be available TODAY
for a reading with the famed Anthony Grzelka (!!!)
and this is what he said...

He said straight away that when he saw my photo (that i had sent with my email)
that my dad appeared to him and said that he URGENTLY needed to speak with me

i was the first choice...

Anthony asked me if i was holding my fathers photo
i was
he spoke my fathers name
and his nicname
and told me how he had died... accurately
Anthony told me of the saddness i had in my heart about my fathers untimely death
specifically
and accurately
and said my father was telling me that it was time that i let this pain in my heart go

Anthony told me about my parents marriage
and reason for their divorce when i was young
...accurately
He said my mum worries about her health
she does
too much
he told me to tell her not to worry anymore, that he still loved her, that he was with my mum's beloved samoyed that died years ago ...and often around her...

and me too...
and Anthony then went on to describe a conversation that my husband and i had just last night...
specifically about a holiday that we thought we should have in Queensland...

Anthony told me about my three children, that i had two of one sex and one of another
i have 2 girls and one boy
he told me that my son when he was little could see him, my dad
and this is true, my son was young when my dad died, and he could barely talk, but after my dads death he kept telling me that he could see him... at the time this gave me great comfort as my son had never met my dad and i always wished that he could have...


Anthony then went on to speak about one of my dad's brothers and described the cancer that he has battled
then my dad told Anthony about his own dad and spoke about how when he died that he had, had a beautiful reunion with him
... his dad, Anthony, said had died quite a long time ago
...this was true
Anthony also spoke of my dad's closeness with his step father and spoke his name... accurately
my family has always felt that my dad's step father died of a broken heart after my dad died,
so close was their relationship

Anthony went on to tell me some intimacies of my marriage that are true...
and he told me to remember... not to forget... to mention that my dad had acknowledged my sister... this made me laugh as my sister had said for me not to forget to mention her!

Anthony told me some names from my great grandparents era that i later confirmed as accurate with my mum and he told me of an illness that someone close to my dad had died of ...accurately

My dearest dad also through Anthony told me accurately that i have had 2 recent surgeries, the most recent (last Thursday) on my breast... for cancer... Anthony was correct and gave me a message from my dad that i had been waiting to hear which brought me to tears...
He told me that i could let go of my fear of cancer now and move forward into the career that i spent last night 'googling' until the wee hours...
nobody knew about this...
except me
and dad it seems...

Anthony's final words confirmed my dads birth date month (April)
and Anthony gave me a specific message for one of my daughters...
using (would you believe) the exact same terminology and words i had with her not 2 nights ago
...this was much needed and welcomed confirmation for both of us...
that neither of us are never ever alone in our trials...

...after this reading with Anthony my mum's bedroom light started flicking and would not stop! (lol!) ...okay you can stop showing off now dad!!!

Thankyou so very much Anthony for this ~amazing~ miracle
You are indeed a ~beautiful~ and talented spirit...
you have gifted me such peace in my heart

and Thankyou my beloved dad for standing by me in my time of need...
~i love you~
to the moon
and back...

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)
always yours
vicki
xox

(Ps) Aussy friends... i'll be on "the Kerrie Ann Show" on Thursday between 9-11am (via) telephone to relay my reading with Anthony... that he so very kindly gave to me for free (normally A$200) He is currently booked for private readings until mid 2011 (!!!)

(pps) you know what this means don't you...
~always keep your dreams in your heart~
and then nothing is impossible

*Shirley Bassey for you dad xox